Feelings - Part One

Hello my dear friend,

Today I will start talking about something called Feelings and how they affected my life.

This that I will be sharing here with you is not based on informations, but in real situations that I faced in life.

I will be writing about 3 experiences I had in life that were lead by feelings.

I learned how to used my faith when I had 18 to 19 years old, when I went for the 1st time to a meeting at UCKG HelpCentre in Portugal.

It was the best day of my life. I was healed from epilepsy. Doctors told me and my mother that for the rest of my life I would have to take some tablets and do exams every 6 months to control my problem.

When I first attend to a meeting, on that very same day I came out healed.

I went back to the doctor and he confirmed that I was healed.

No more pains on my head, no more tablets, I was able to have a normal life.

Me and my mother keep going to UCKG HelpCentre as we start seeing big differences in our life, especially inside of us.

I joined the Youth Group, I was asked also if I wanted to help in Kids Zone, and I was really happy because all my life had a meaning now. I was able to do what I really wanted. 

Old friends of mine start make fun of me and calling me stupid.

They were saying that I was giving my money to the Pastors but...I did not have any money...how could I give what I didn't have?

Well by the end of the day all of them disappeared  They never were there for me why now they were coming against my decisions? 

After some months, the Bishop responsible for the work in that UCKG, requested that all the names of the helpers in Kid Zone were given to him.

He was going to raise us to Assistants.

I was very happy with those news because I wanted really to do more.

I was still in the Youth Group, I was evangelizing, Kids Zone, but because I had time, I wanted to do more.

Some weeks after the names of the new Assistants were announced and my name was not in the middle of them.

I really cannot express what I felt on that day. But was really bad.

The week after, Sunday morning, I was attending the 7h30am service. The word that was given on that day for the church was: "many are called but few are chosen".

Everything inside me froze.

That word was not coming out of my mind and I spoke to God, that I had understood the message. I had not been chosen by Him.

So I decided to leave the church. I felt that no one will mind if I was or not around, I felt the worst person in the world, I felt...I felt...I felt...

Big mistake...I allowed my feelings to be in control of my mind.

I could had taken a different decision, I could ask a Pastor or an Assistant to talk to me, to explain me. But for me was much easier to follow what I was feeling on that day, on that time, feelings together with pride.

Because of that I end up to be away from God's presence for 8 years (another day I will let you know what happen).

Feelings can never be in control of our mind. Feelings they come and go, like the picture you see above, our mode can change in seconds. Depend on us to control.

I learned that bad feelings they only make us to take wrong decisions in life.

Feelings they can put us really down.

A person who lives by feeling is full of doubts and the word of God tell us that:

"...But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind.  For let not that man suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord..." James 1.6-7

If this has happened to you or something similar  please, seek for a Pastor advice or from an Assistant.

Do not allow your mind to be like a sea wave, back and forward.

Doubts are the biggest enemy of faith. Without faith it is impossible to please God. 

Start today rejecting all the doubts that come into your mind. No matter what you have heard. If you see that will put you down, immediately reject it. 

The word of God lift us up and will never put us down.

I hope that this experience helped you.